Previously i had many complexity thoughts......
thinking about future, thinking about many negative sides...
the more i feel tht i am appreciating you, the more i feel tht you are depreciating me...
thinking that i cannot better than her...
thinking that you love her rather than me...you paid a lot of effort when you together with her, and not me.
her, your ex.
I fear that you loved her rather than love me.
I fear that i cannot better than her.
I fear that she is more important compared to me in your heart.
These kind of measure drive me into suffer and unhappy.
I began to reduce my love that i had paid to you.
I don't want i am the only one who feel that you are important to me,
I want that you are the same, who scare of losing me too.
but now, i started to change my mind...
no more such thinking that demotivate me to lay my love on you.
on the contrary...it motivated me to do my part...to love you for more than what i can do.
and you, to me, will be always like the first day i knew you.
I told you that i am just simple like a water, no taste and no colour...
i scared that you will bore to me...
You replied, water is the basic of other drinks.
Maybe we are just enjoying our simple life...and just ignoring the rest...
walk step by step...
We aldy together to each other for more than 7 months......
and next week...i gonna to stay with you...live in ur life.
I worried for several weeks...but donno why, today, i finally found an answer for myself.
I should not thinking too much on the uncertainties...
they haven't arrive yet,
and now, i was ready...TO LIVE WITH YOU.
